Thursday, October 27, 2011

Busy, Busy

I'm sorry blogging world!  I have been so busy I neglected my poor blog.  I feel bad so I came with a little update!

Josh's 23rd birthday was on October 1.  I did pretty well this year.  I was busy most of the day so that always helps.  I had the homecoming parade so I went out with friends that night and I got to spend some time with his family that day.  It's a comfort and a little reminder that he's always around.  I know he was most definitely celebrating up in the sky.

Lately I've been struggling with a lot of things.  Mostly anger.  Mad at him for leaving or things that happened in the past.  Mad with where my life is.  Have things gotten better?  Sure.  But I'm such a weirdo these days.  Honestly there are some days I don't know how anyone other than another widow puts up with me.  It's kinda ridiculous.

It's so hard to describe what you're feeling to other people.  I feel like I can never get through to them no matter what I say and they just don't understand things from my perspective.  It's so hard and frustrating sometimes.  I know it's probably worse for those who are putting up with me too.  Let me just tell you it's an odd life that we widows live.  Mrs. P posted on Facebook the other day about having a widow island and I think that is a fantastic idea!  Hopefully here soon I will get to go on an AWP Getaway to get to experience that a little bit.  I think it would help.

Right now I'm finishing up my last few weeks of classes before student teaching in November.  I started my Care Package Drive for a second year.  I'm a little disappointed it hasn't taken off as well as last year, but I've been so busy I haven't had much time.  Honestly though, I'll take whatever I can get and a little bit of donations is better than none.  I'm also really excited to be working with Operation Troop Appreciation out of Pittsburgh.  It is a great organization serving our deployed troops.  The  people there are amazing and so appreciative of everything.

That pretty much sums up my life right now.  The holidays are creeping up and when I see things in the stores I'm actually feeling a little bit of excitement again.  We'll see how I feel as it gets closer to the time.

I'm going to make a serious attempt to blog more often!  I miss my blog and I really need to get back on the bandwagon.  <3

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