Thursday, May 19, 2011

I did it.

I started writing our story.  Things have been kinda crappy lately and it's therapeutic for me.  I started back at day one.. the summer we met.  It's crazy to think that summer was six whole years ago.  Where has the time gone?  I will never forget that summer.  So much happened and it was so much fun.  Having the chance to tell our story, whether it goes out into the world or not, makes me feel better knowing that I at least tried.

I've said it time and time again that I want people to know.  It's like a new found mission in life.  And that is one thing I DO know.  I like knowing that so I don't feel totally lost.  Sometimes the writing is painful, but other days it makes me happy.  To remember how good we had it and what that kind of love felt like. 

It's probably going to take a long time.  Depending on how I feel and what I remember.  I need to do it though.  Do it for myself.  Who knows, maybe it could help someone else.  Maybe I'll be the next Nicholas Sparks :p

8 comments:

  1. I know that though therapeutic, it must be a rough venture for you to put it all down into words. It is something that I can only attempt to imagine & some days (though it may sound selfish) I try not to even think about if I were in those shoes. It takes a strong person to be able to live the life that you have been dealt. As a fellow Military SO, my heart goes out to you! Goodluck with your writing & honestly- pouring your heart into this may just make you the next Nicholas Sparks :)

    -Jessica
    Sugar in My Grits: http://mommiesblog2011.blogspot.com/

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  2. I'm a new follower who stumbled upon your blog through other military wife blogs. I just wanted to say that I'm truly sorry for your loss. Your husband is a hero. It may be difficult to put your words in writing, but I believe without a doubt your story will help another wife going through the same situation.

    Rachelle
    (http://lifebyrachelle.blogspot.com)

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  3. I hope someday you do consider publishing it. There needs to be more out there to help those not living it at least get a glimpse of understanding. And from a personal point of view. A lot of people not affected by all of this have no clue what this could even begin to feel like.

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  4. While I have never been in your shoes, I started on a fiction novel based on the people in my life. After some painful events, it seemed too much to write afterwards because the emotions you didn't think were there just overwhelm you and come out.

    But you're right, it's very theraputic and I hope you pursue it :)

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  5. I would buy your book probably 20 of them and give them to people who need to hear your story. I love Nicholas Sparks too! You are such a strong person for being able to write everything down.

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  6. I would do it!! Even if it takes a long time, it's worth it. It will be healing and will allow you to never forget all those special little moments that make life worth living!! If you felt up to it, you could even include all the time since Josh has been gone, and I bet that story of how you made it through all the pain will help so many other people who don't know where to start or where to turn. You are such an inspiration, and you do credit to Josh every day!! I know he is proud of you!!!!!! Keep it up, girl.

    -AM @ http://acreedandapsalm.blogspot.com

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  7. I think writing your story is going to be amazing for you. You know how people say that talking to someone helps, I think the same goes for writing. There are going to be days I'm sure when you just can't write and others where your crying through the whole thing, but just remember that there are times too when you'll be smiling and laughing. Keep strong and if you need anything, just ask!

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  8. Im new to this and came across your blog. I just have to say that you are such a strong and amazing woman. And i am so sorry for your loss. He's a hero. And your such an inspiration. My heart goes out to you, stay strong <3

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