I was on facebook a little bit ago responding to some messages. You know how albums pop up on the side? Well, one was there that I haven't seen in a while. I clicked on one and I flipped through all 123 pictures from last spring and summer. Weddings, birthdays, babies, random stuff. Leading right up until 2 weeks before that awful day.
I was smiling. Hugging people. I was with you. Laughing. Having fun. In love.
I regret it now that I didn't realize how lucky I was. How in love I was. How HAPPY I was. I had everything I ever could have wanted right there in front of me: an amazing boyfriend, a loving family, the best of friends. I had it all. And I took it for granted.
I lost one piece of that puzzle and it changed my whole life. One piece (and probably the biggest) threw my life into a whirlwind. Changed it forever. Long last impression doesn't even begin to cover it.
Take a look.. these are some pictures from that album:
I look at that girl and I feel like I don't even know her anymore. What happened to her? I have changed so much in the last six months that I feel like I don't remember who I was because I am nothing like her. I'm a different person. Actually, I am still just trying to find myself. Put the pieces back together to make a new me.
Lacking an identity.
Weird. So, as I continue on everyday, it's finding more pieces. Putting them together. Making a new me and finding happy again. My most favorite saying ever.. It just takes time. Blah.