Reminders

Wednesday was a beautiful spring day.  It was warm, the sun was shining, and the sky was blue with fluffy white clouds.  I was working so I spent the day inside at Fox's.  As I was working something caught my eye.  I peered across the street as I saw the funeral directors putting the signs over the parking meters and before long people started piling into the funeral home.  It instantly struck me, wondering who could be inside.

Before long a fellow employee stopped in.  The young man inside was a 19 year old from the area hat had been killed in a car accident earlier in the week.  Memories came flooding back to me.  I saw young kids and families one by one find their way in and out of the funeral home.  It reminded me of you.  Us being 21 and 20 years old our friends and their families filed into your viewing the same way. 

It seems as though young people die around here far too often.  I guess as humans we never expect young people to die because it isn't the order of life.  But it is very much real and it happens way more often than we would like.  I remember at the ripe age of 15 when we lost our first friend.  How complete devastating that was too us because "that doesn't happen here."  I have since learned that it does and it can be anyone at anytime.

As crappy as it is, it's a learning experience.  Something so bad that you have to look to find the light in it.  Where is the good?  I turned my focus to school.  Luckily for me I found another love, blogging.  I recently started a professional blog.  I love writing and I love when I'm not forced to do it.  I don't think I would ever be a writer because then it would be more forced.  I like doing it for me.  Believe it or not I put a lot of thought into my blogs prior to writing them.  It's therapeutic for me.  My professional blog is a way for me to keep organized and I think it is something to set yourself apart.

As much as I hate it: it happened for a reason.  There has to be a reason and maybe this was one of them.  To show me what I'm really capable of.  Although, I definitely would have preferred a different method to teach me a lesson.

Oh, speaking of careers, I'm taking my Praxis II exams tomorrow.  Here's the kicker: I have bronchitis!  How ridiculous is that?!  As if I'm not nervous enough I have to deal with hacking up my lungs.  I have done absolutely nothing all day today because I don't have an ounce of faith.  I should have been studying, but I haven't ventured far from the couch.  I watched to Royal Wedding and tons of tv shows.  Exciting life I lead when I feel like crap.  I swear it never fails when something important comes along I pick up some kind of crazy illness.  Not to mention I already had strep throat this semester.  It's another one of those things you think God could do in another way.

Why can't anything be easy..?