The day you come home to me. I didn't want to wake up this morning because this isn't the homecoming I was dreaming of. I feel like I have a bottomless pit in my stomach. I really have to do this whether I want to or not. The shock is over and reality has set in. I don't know what I am going to do..
I can say this isn't fair a thousand times over, but it's not going to change a single thing. It won't get me out of what I have to do the next three days. At the same time, I need to be there for you. I have been there since day one and I will be there until the end.
Lately I have been finding comfort in talking to the people who knew you like I did. Even Brant (I know babe, who would've thought that?) Know what he told me? "Brant, Chrissy is going to kill me and it's all your fault." Good boy, I trained you well :)
Ugh. I can't even begin to describe how much I miss you and long for you to be here with me. There really isn't another person like you. I'll never find that kind of love from anyone else. What we had was really one of a kind..
I hope you're with me today and continuing to be my rock as you always were. I need you now more than ever..
I love you.